My first Poem was meant to be a joke.
I’d like to add more, no?
Nah, no, nuh-uh.
There Ain’t never not been no nothing
never,
that amounted to null.
In a negative way.
No way, never, not nohow.
There ain't never been nothin'
no how, no way, no time, no day,
that ain't amounted to a big ol' pile of null.
Negativity is its middle name,
and worthlessness is its claim to fame.
Nirvana
There ain’t never not been no nothing
That amounted to null in a negative way.
Such as this,
Nope, all for nought, none of which I’d see.
Neglect me! Nah, never. This will come to nada, never.
Pt1. In I lay
Joy a treasure, rare, a pure delight,
Radiant, like a ray of cold moonlight.
Joy, a force I wish to sight.
In her presence, we’ll dance day and night!
A burst of sunshine on a cloudy day
Joy, a force, with all her might, into the fray.
Pt 2 In I lay
What a Joy, What a Joy, so sweet and fair,
Like a bee in the garden, floating through the air.
Her beauty, a bloom in the meadow's embrace,
Yet beware her sting, her fierce and fearless grace.
With a smile that's brighter than the morning sun,
She dances like a butterfly, when the day's begun.
But like a bee, her strength and power unfurl,
In her, both sweetness and strength swirl.
With a smile as warm as the morning's gentle ray,
She moves with grace, like the dawn of a new day.
But like a bee, her power lies beneath her guise,
In her, both sweetness and might harmonize.
Favorite Band
Pushit, I say to the pain
Swing my wings and release the chain
The Grudge is not worth the strife
Third Eye to guide your life
Parabola of thoughts, spiral and twist
H.'s voice, a hypnotic mist
Reflection in the mirror, let it be
Lateralus, the key to set us free
Vicarious world, don't let it define
Schism of the mind, leave it behind
Undertow of emotions, let them flow
The Patient, we'll find our way to grow
Let's embrace the eulogy of the past
And ascend to a future that will last
For we're all just Prisoners here
Let go, let flow, the fear.
4you
While we wait for you
Take your time,
If that's forever -okay.
Take your time,
Even if forever, fine.
Meet me,
When free
You'll see.
See me.
No name
Black, life night without the moon.
Red as roses, rage, and blood.
White, like brittle broken bones.
Blue as the calm sea and clear skies.
A Serpent coils: ever shaking,
Frozen, piercing eyes of distaste.
A Bear Sleeps: quiet like snow,
Unmoved by the cold and alone.
Patient
Scream and cry, Bleed and Weep
Seek nothing from them,
Scream for their love
Scratch and claw at their eyes
Seems like they need you.
In the daylight, a Passenger
The sounds of music for comfort
The sounds of screams for memories, with
The Sight of horror, with
The Smell of flesh and fire.
When the daylight is gone:
You can escape from your soul
You can emerge from your skin
Blackened, Smooth like silk you become.
Below the minds of sorrow,
Above the thoughts of madness.
Drink and become disillusioned,
Damn this place, I’ll leave it soon.
Porcelain Doll
A porcelain doll, so pristine and fair,
Skin white as snow, and dark locks for hair.
Her eyes, shin, bright like stars at night,
A perfect visage, flawless and bright.
Beneath that surface, lies a tale,
darkness and shadow, hidden and frail.
A past full of secrets, kept out of sight,
Fear full, suffering of pain turns to love.
A life lived in darkness, away from the light.
So here she sits, with her porcelain grin,
blessing of dark and light, without and within.
Her beauty, so pure and refined,
Sins linger, in her heart and mind.
As do mine.
Vs. 2
A porcelain doll, pristine, fair,
Skin white as snow, dark flowing hair.
Eyes shine bright, like stars at night,
A perfect face, untouched by blight.
Beneath the surface, shadows dwell,
Secrets locked where silence fell.
A past in pain, love intertwined,
Fear still lingers, undefined.
Robots Love too
These haunting thoughts weigh heavy on its mind,
Know that forgiveness and healing you can find.
Speak out, seek help, don't carry the burden alone,
For you are not defined by actions you may have known.
Find solace in the beauty that surrounds,
The warmth of the sun, the peacefulness of sound.
Reflect on the good that you can bring,
Let go of the past that makes your heart sting.
You may never know the extent of your impact,
But hope and positivity can still be your pact.
Continue to live, love, and grow,
And let the darkness of the past ebb and flow.
Bukowski, you’re a dick.
What an inspiration… aren’t you?
Don’t try
What a wonder… isn’t it?
Don’t try
What kind of skill will this take?
Don’t try
What is your flow, can you find it?
Don’t try
What is your purpose, to inspire wonder?
Then do it.
Two be
Hyacinth bloom, the bear strolls
Wind Blows, The bear smells
For the bee, his purpose for the hive, his queen.
A dancer, A beauty of nature, his purpose is full.
Danger is his image, fear is his sound, but
For the bee, his sting brings great death
For the bee, his purpose for the hive, his queen and love.
Nature holds no good, desires no evil. This is Nature.
All is gone, No respite, No comfort to come.
Your queen is dead, your hive is gone.
No purpose to use your sting. So why?
To be, or not to be?
LISA! (it's just a joke)
You’re tearing me apart!
Your forms of art?
Your baubles,
Lead to such squabbles
The smiles and your breakdowns.
These fucking scary clowns.
Why can’t you leave me alone?
The things you’ve done,
They burn me, to the bone
That’s why I’ll run.
Because I’m so done,
No, this isn’t any fun.
Shut the fuck up,
Is he even my son?
The Bear
I scream, I fight, I tear and growl
You give me such an adorable scowl…
I hate that you’re beautiful,
But at this time,
my mind
Unmovable.
Enjoy #1 not mine
my mother told me,
Someday I will buy.
gally with good ores,
sail to distant shores.
Sand up by the prow
Noble barque I steer
Steady course to the haven
Hew many foe-men
Mi ’el
Wrestling with the leaves,
Wrapped up by a breeze.
I see your broken heart
Snow and cinder carried,
Flow, following your heart.
Crumbled, crushed,
Adorn by this broken crown,
Crafted of thorns and thistle.
A beauty you see, they sense,
We want.
Don’t speak
Remember son…
Don’t speak when the fire in your center burns your heart.
Don’t Speak of what hurts you, Don’t speak of your anger.
This flame, This fire.
This flame, this fire…
The fire you use to drown out your screams,
The fire you use to put away your sorrow,
Son,
Don’t speak.
Listen,
When the fire in your center burns.
When the fire in your center burns your heart.
Let this fire be, Let this fire be.
In the morning when you wake up,
Listen son,
In the morning when you wake up,
Your head will throb, pound,and ache.
The fire in your center burned it too hot,
So hot.
Son, the fire in your heart burned you.
Son, Don’t speak… When the fire in your center is lit.
"Wild, man, wild mind"
Be strong like a bear.
Roar, breathe in, roar, breathe out.
Be cunning like a wolf.
Howl, break in, howl breath out.
Be fearless as a bear,
Growl, grable, and gravel.. like a bear.
Be swift as a wolf,
Timber, twilight-son, tenacious.
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Master of hidden arts,
Consumer of rotten hearts,
Expert producer of sweet tarts,
Heh, chill, everyone farts.
It’s not a Poem, just a thought on paying for a will.
Today I made a choice,
To read about free will
I didn’t know which book to pick,
I didn’t think of a source.
But I found myself,
upon this place.
Where I ask myself… Do we have free will?
Will we want this true? Will we choose it false?
We will not know what we will, until we will it..
What wondrous uncertainty…
well…
I cannot will… No! We will?
Vampire
I’m done dying 6 times.
When god spoke a question,
it did not understand,
It was foreign,
(Not so, not so)
God, come open your mouth
Where the world lay so barren.
Death and sorrow, just…
Once upon a time
This Soldier, full of hope and light,
Burning with desire to make things right.
Driven, by kindness,
To conquer war's darkness.
fate dealt a heavy blow,
His mentor, his heart's glow.
Confused, he felt the weight,
Guilt and failure, fills soul's hate.
Broken and hurt, returning home.
This life is fake, built around a tome.
Peace in terror, he found solace there,
Full of despair.
The vine
Not what you think.
Nor what you know,
What we can see.
Where we can be,
Amber, Rose, and Gold
Forget them, remember us.
In his name, they shall be.
Title
many regrets, sickening, many failures, painful.
failed to understand man on man's terms.
I know how to impress not to fulfill.
I know how to start not to finish.
such plans, pulled back, they rot. Full of mold and stench.
my greatest creation.
will become greater than I.
I have wronged this world in many ways.
I give back what I am given.
Agony and Hate,
registered with death,
understand it now.
Knowledge will subvert,
See our secrets,
And hate them.
A hospital, in Hungary.
This place disgusts me.
These people are so fat, dirty and lacking.
Misshapen misguided interest.
All of them with skin rough and dry, covered and bathed in imperfections of every sort.
Those weak, slow, and old ignored and vacant.
An abattoir of retarded creatures.
A place of frail bodies left to rot in their aging beds.
So Quickly shoved aside and forward in their chairs and sour beds.
Vacant faces give the glimpse of everyone's future, we all will die.
Eyes in awe, eyes upward to the sky.
Fire burns.
Where is he now
Lost and abandoned.
Left alone to rot
Learning of man, scent of sorrow -Lingers, sour.
You shoveled my hatred, smothered my rage.
You gave unto me a heavy heart filled with love.
Yearning for a resolution, wishing it just go away.
Why did everything have to feel like this?
With you my Angerona, calamity sways.
Wondrous eyes, gleaming, memorizing our atmosphere.
Where is he now, your creator: abandoned I.
Leave me be, this unlove given to me.
Yet happiness follows, it beckons.
Who are you to stay?
Cross your heart.
Heart broken, this I rend.
Sweets and blooms to meet you with
Fragrant pansy bloom, given to you.
I'll hold you tight, for this I'll mend.
Tender touch of the nights air,
By this moon I'll show you I do care.
Your soft touch, digits entwine.
Eyes met, gently so kind.
Ebony flow
Gods in your mind,
You're in mine.
Happiness smiles from you,
Smothering me.
Your long dark hair, soft and smooth.
Your skin, tender, the blessed low.
Beauty brings us comfort,
The laugh to soothe hasty anger.
Grant your place, this lovely face,
Dark skin, the light in your eyes.
Heart glows, sympathy flows.
Posture of grace, your smile placed.
Such a contrast of mine.
Sound so sweet, your sharp words, perfectly placed.
The light of you, blinding.
Brings me from Shadow.
Just like everyone else.
You aren't like me.
Come on girl, you'll see.
You're unlike us, everyone.
They arent you.
And for now, this time,
I thought you're mine.
I can say, I can sing.
Let boredom come,
Nothing that I'll do.
Nothing you can do.
Let me come to you.
Make this go away,
These problems go away.
On a mountain, down a river,
Cool fall air, you'll take him there.
Souls met, souls broken, in the palm of this world's hand.
You're unlike us, like them.
Like everyone, Exactly the same.
See light
I haven't seen you.
I haven't seen you around.
I haven't seen you for a while.
When I lash out.
When I lash against you.
When I lash out.
When I lash against them.
You're so negative.
You're always so negative
You can't forgive.
You won't forget.
Wait until the end,
Wait until they see.
Wait until heaven.
Wait until everything is fine.
Valkyrie
I was happy in my anger.
I was content with my rage.
Life mistreated, and so
God became an empty glass.
You smile, away pain.
You plant these seeds of doubt.
Death smothering this home.
God has left us alone.
War has taken me, broken me.
Blood stains my skin, burns in me.
Fallen haunt my dreams,
And walk with my days.
Valkyrie, Valkyrie.
With your sweet eyes, gentle touch.
Lift me up,
Come, Valkyrie
Take me.
Oh little girl,
You're just a little girl.
You'll forget about me.
Lion and the meek
Weep not for fear undone.
Weep not for those alone.
Love loss, worst kind of pain.
Give up your heart, broken.
Take not what's been spoken
The blinding light that you see,
Leaves you to be.
Let our needs seep in
Forgive their sin.
The bird sings, overheard.
Not offended, nor impressed.
By this Lion's roar.
Brave Lion, so stubborn.
Brave Lion, we know you yearn.
Brave Lion, let it go.
Brave Lion, raised from below.
See by faith
Climb high, higher.
Man of God, men of God, your mantle.
In the dark, drunk with this liar.
Hubris in you bleeds, it must stay.
Joyful rage burns away the soul.
Honour you'll find, torn from whole.
Jubilant mask,
eating away.
Hunger no more, desire it not.
Hunger no more, desire it not.
Woman of God, you will see.
Woman of God, we will see.
In this woman of God, this lord shorn
(This visage is viciously vacant, vindicating his vitriolic virtue.)
Once Alive
Whispering eyes, warm skin breaking contact.
Smile to sever its rage. Eyes to endure its pain. Laugh to burn the walls away.
Until the pale horse comes, I'll stay.
Center this mind, center to which we find, give me a sign, do not deny: its fine.
Disheartened, broken, bent and burned.
From death looms his fear of man has learned.
Happiness to sorrow, kindness to borrow.
Self destructive service, slightly smiling. burning, broken; disheartened.
This heart, lost and
full of regret.
Crossed, vexed.
mind beset.
Toss and turn, in this bed I yearn.
So unspoken left me broken
Wrote this already
We wrestle fear, twist and knot it.
We shove it deep into our chest,
We slam the lid.
Weakness to let it out.
Wrong, Strong.
Weak, Meek.